Sonita ... just Hang on !!!!

A week later and here i am again posting the most relevant events that are happening in my life =)...Firstly, i have to say that i never had the chance to thank all the ones that give themselves time to read my blog, seriously, i really  appreciate it!!

Well, this week has been full of ups and downs, but the most important thing is to get the best out of them.  Definetely, a plus has been that it seems that my arm is healing!!! it feels quite better but i cannot assure it is successfully healed. Let`s see what happens when i head up to my first swimming session tomorrow. Ahh yeaaaa, finally!!! I really miss my hard workouts in the pool and track and i just can´t wait to get back there and just do what i love the most "triatlon". But what  surely is  above my priorities is my Education, therefore, i have to put more effort to it than anything else. This is my final year, it means that i am in the final stage of my 5-year journey, it seems easy but it is not. I am not saying that the tasks are impossible to accomplish nor too difficult, but they take a lot of time and stress from you. But the good news are that i am getting more used to this hectic "Senior student" life and it just will take less than 6 months!!!. 

As i said in my last post, one of the new things that i am facing is my teaching practicum, and it is taking me a lot of time!! My first time was not  a disaster i guess, but it wasnt perfect either, but as soon as i heard my feedback last Tuesday, i just felt kind of hurt, more insecure than before, dissapointed and very stressed. I just told to myself "how can they ask for perfection to somebody like me?" "I´m not a pro nor an expert at this?", i just felt out of the track, i was so sad and  i found myself in a blind alley =( I just thought "OMG how am i going to do  next time?". But i know that everything has a solution, and that i was not going to relsolve anything with those negative feelings, that´s why i  just thought that it was actually possible to do a better performance. So i just prepared everything for Wednesday´s task and began to do my duty.

I managed to avoid the mistakes i had done last time, i liked the fact that i was going to deal with grammar structures which is something that i enjoy instead of doing games, activities and stuff like those.

I tried to do the best activity by giving clear directions, i was totally sure the directions were  clear enough  for me, but sadly they were not for the guys :(, i explained many times and they still didn`t get my idea =( .... i felt so desperated and  i almost freaked out, and adding the fact that i was being observed i just wanted everything to be perfect,but obviously it wasn´t. Luckily, my tutor helped me out and the students finally got the idea.  I appreciated it from the teacher =). When doing the next activity, i noticed one boy did not have a book, he seemed shy and kind of cold towards me. I had a copy of the lesson and gave it to him kindly, he smiled and seemed very  grateful to me, i felt rewarded (good sensations =]) :)!!!...Then i pasted my grammar charts and started my explanations. I think it well went, it wasn´t that bad since everybody got my ideas, i just thought "good for you Sonia". I realised the time isn´t felt whilst being busy and i think this time i did a  better job,  not greater, though.

Furthermore, my classmates have told me that they did better too which is something that im happy for:). Everybody is so close that i just don´t feel the time whilst being in a class. Everyone has a different outstanding quality that i admire.I have to thank them as they´ve been so supportive with me as well.I just have to hang on and give my best in every task,no matter whether i like it or not and it also won´t be forever which is nice ;).Now it seems hard, stressing and it feels that my time is being stolen since i can´t do activities i´m used to do daily but at the same time I know that time goes very fast and out of a sudden i hopefully  will be finishing this semester with a huge smile in my face. 

cheers ;)