=( A new tragedy :(

This week has been a very different one, here in my country and outside El Salvador. Personally, i just feel very outraged and shocked at the same time. After watching the news I just sat for a moment in my couch and thought about the following: "How can these events keep happening?", "Why can´t some people  understand and learn from previous incidents in order to avoid future ones ?". Well i will resume the reason why i`m stating this, i hopei don´t ofend anybody with my thoughts!!. ........2 huge and deplorable accidents in less than a week !!!! that´s just insane !!!!:( yeaaaa not good nor logical nor FAIR !!!.. 2 days ago, a harrow hit a bus in a bus stop located in km 42 carretera Panamericana , Why?????-->exceding the speed limit =[, at that time, a 2nd bus was involved since whilst the harrow was attempting  to avoid crashing the 1st bust by crossing the left line unwisely, the 2nd bus smashed the harrow aaaaaaaanddddddd a 3rd bus was coming as well and when trying to avoid to collide them, it just branched off and smashed a tree with an incredible speed.. you may imagine what the consequence was : pain, injuries, blood, bruises, wounds and death :(...and tonight, an hour ago, another accident, same road (carretera Panamericana), same consequenses, similar conditions. A bus fell over a 30 m cliff . Why??-->authorities agreed that the main cause was speeding !! :(
So, i get back to the main  question--->" Why does this keep happening?" i can`t find a certain answer but i think that if i was a bus driver, i would realise that i am not  working with animals nor objects but with humans, therefore, my responsability would be to drive them safely. But the issue is that some bus drivers do not care about people`s safety but they just drive imprudently showing a careless attitude.
I just would advise all my fellow Salvadorans and foreign people who take time to read my blog to be aware if you are a driver. Think twice before touching a steering wheel ( dont drink, dont abuse the speed limit, respect the transit rules). So, the solution is on our hands, we can´t experience this situation again, it`s not fair just GIVE IT A REST!!!.
Bad news out of our boundaries as well, an earthquake hit New Zealand this week and the consequences were shown. It makes me sad seeing pain and sorrow in the world, but this time, nobody  can do anithing towards Nature`s fury.

See you !!

Mission 1 Done!!!

Holiiizz!!! well as the headline UP there says : Mission 1 has ended. Good news for me since i´m going to have a week off, afterwards i have to start the process again but overall, Season 1 has been so much fun, lots of learning and great memories have been gained as well =]. I learnt that there is always a first time, and even though i struggled a lot at the beginning, i did not get frustrated and just looked forward to the following opportunities .
After the first time class disaster, only one thing came to my mind : "there are 3 more opportunities to show what i can do and what i can apport to my  tutor and the group of students i was responsible for. 3 more chances are still waiting for me" i said. As a result, i improved a bit the 2nd time and a bit more the 3rd and 4th time. OMG it feels so good!!
Another thing that i must add is that you have to be ready to do things that maybe you are not used to doing everyday, something new may be challenging but  what really counts is the experience you are able to have and when seeing that you are improving your performance, the final result turns to be possitive for you. Every class i climbed a step, i was going uphill , well,actually, i am going uphill i guess!!! but i am not saying i don´t have mistakes, i still have details i should work on.
Furthermore, this time i felt quite nice and a bit sad because i got to know a bit the students i was looking after, somehow they made me feel secure whilst delivering my class. Their cooperation was a key for me since the last 2 times my fear and insecurity had faded away =)!!! I had the opportunity to see their skills as students and even their personal qualities. I dare to say that they are quick learners which made this whole thing easier for me, i have to thank my tutor as well, he was very supportive and even though i felt unsure about this at the beginning, he and i worked as a team, i still have a lot to learn, though !
What made me feel very rewarded and satisfied to myself was that some students told me that they were understanding everything despite my Zero  experience in this different world jajaja, a group of girls approached me and told me that i was part of their team :) it was so nice to hear that and obviously it meant for me ----> ZERO nervousness, ZERO insecurity, ADIOS to my fears.
Therefore, the final outcome is that  i got the best out of this experience, i have no regrets and the more relaxed you are, the more fun you have and the BETTER the result tends to be. So, my advice would be, don´t be afraid and get out and just do what you have to do as best as you can.

Sooo...What`s next?? Well, i have lots of homework, essays, etc. and Season 2 kicks off within 2 weeks..

More posts coming soon :)


Ooooooh!! BTW, this note was sent to me by some of the students jejeje =)!!!

Round 3 = Finally :)

Holaaa!!! well, it seems i´m posting more often which is good =) so everybody who reads this can be fully updated of what`s going on in my life ......... Some good news that i can bring up to you are that i started to swim this week, i feel super insecure, though..Today i swam only 2.5k and suddenly it started to hurt a bit so i had to pull over =( , but i think that recovery takes time so i just keep my mind possitive...I also ran 6k in the track, i had spent 3 week  without doing anything(no excersice at all), so consequently today`s run was sooo hard :S i couldn`t run without losing my breath but my coach says that fitness is gained little by little.
As for my other activities, i hit ROUND 3 of my weekly mision, and surprisengly, i got good results which tells me that i`m improving my performance =). As normal, i prepared everything the night before the duty, i arrived 30 mins before the class started and as some students arrived early as well, i dared to ask them whether they had understood everything i had taught so far and they said "yes, of course we had" and i just felt so relieved since i know that my weak points are shown in other things rather than my explanations :)!!!
Well the class was based in analyzing daily situations, finding solutions of some issues that people who are married face,etc. but the best thing was that the students built their ideas and they seemed happy and more opened towards me which made me feel better ;)
When i finished my duty, i had missed one activity which was a debate and both my tutor and me worked as a team and managed to make this activity very exciting and obviously it was a success...
Overall, i felt happy since my tutor was very happy and congratulated me jejeje =] ....
Plus, no matter the challenge you have in the way but i always remind telling to myself to give my best and get the best out of every single experience i  might have, so at the end i have no regrets and at the same time i just don`t want to dissapoint myself nor my teacher who is a great person and i know that believes in me.
 I think that i am starting to like this thing so that i don`t feel that huge presion over my shoulders nor the fear i felt the 1st time. I`m not saying i would like to make my living of this, no way!!, and it is not because i hate it nor i loathe it but i think it takes too much time from you and also there is an enormus  responsability to take  and sometimes it brings soo  much stress that i just want to avoid.!!!!!! it´s just not me.....but who knows what the future will be like :S!! never say never!!!!!!

So Proud =)

yeaaa Beach !! jujuju

A quick post.... !!! i just want you to know is that today the first triathlon of the year, it means that 2011 season has started =] .... a Sprint Distance (750 swim-20km bike- 5km run) It was full of good sensations for TEAM IRON CHILDREN!! My brother, Gustavo won the race ,1:40 minutes ahead the 2nd and 3rd place, he kicked some ass today!!!! Impressed!!!! He swam at the top of everyone 6 sec ahead the 2nd guy... from that moment i knew he was going to win the whole race. A "solo breakaway" on the bike was enough !!! OMG he looked like Alberto Contador when biking jajajjajaja , the 1st pack was behind ( which included my younger brother, Raul )working together as well but still not enough. In the final stage, Tavo just held a moderate pace without so much pressure crossing the finish line without anybody near him =)!!! What really upsets all of us is that there is still Corruption  when posting the official time since my brother was suppossed to be more than 1:30 minutes ahead, but instead, they placed the 2nd and 3rd guy way nearer.!! it means that according to the real time, there is more than only a 40-minute gap... Sooooooooooooo Unfear =(... but still,  nobody  can deny that Tavo`s performance was just perfect today !! whether those people want to accept it or no !!!!!

As for the girls, Nataly did a great lesson of courage to everyone!!! After leading the swim, she crashed on the bike, it wasn`t that serious,though, only a few bruises!! Despite her fall, she got up and caught the other girl in the chase pack...She hang up in her wheel until the last lap that tiredness made her lose her rival.
She managed to recover and ran very well :) she ended 2nd which was a great performance as well. My little sister was stunning too!!! she ended up 3rd despite she was sick, consequently, out of shape for a week!!! My other teammates did an excelent race as well !! Jony, Miguel and Raul worked very hard in the bike....
Now we are back to Santa Ana but i think it was a good day for Team Iron Children.

ReMemBeRinG!!! =)

Whatch this video about USAT Camp, 2008.....

It was full of learning experiences, new kind people,  workouts,  tests, a different enviroment = FUN :)

The funniest thing was that i lost my shoe in T2 jajajajajaja
Hilarious !!!!



Good stuff =D

Sonita ... just Hang on !!!!

A week later and here i am again posting the most relevant events that are happening in my life =)...Firstly, i have to say that i never had the chance to thank all the ones that give themselves time to read my blog, seriously, i really  appreciate it!!

Well, this week has been full of ups and downs, but the most important thing is to get the best out of them.  Definetely, a plus has been that it seems that my arm is healing!!! it feels quite better but i cannot assure it is successfully healed. Let`s see what happens when i head up to my first swimming session tomorrow. Ahh yeaaaa, finally!!! I really miss my hard workouts in the pool and track and i just can´t wait to get back there and just do what i love the most "triatlon". But what  surely is  above my priorities is my Education, therefore, i have to put more effort to it than anything else. This is my final year, it means that i am in the final stage of my 5-year journey, it seems easy but it is not. I am not saying that the tasks are impossible to accomplish nor too difficult, but they take a lot of time and stress from you. But the good news are that i am getting more used to this hectic "Senior student" life and it just will take less than 6 months!!!. 

As i said in my last post, one of the new things that i am facing is my teaching practicum, and it is taking me a lot of time!! My first time was not  a disaster i guess, but it wasnt perfect either, but as soon as i heard my feedback last Tuesday, i just felt kind of hurt, more insecure than before, dissapointed and very stressed. I just told to myself "how can they ask for perfection to somebody like me?" "I´m not a pro nor an expert at this?", i just felt out of the track, i was so sad and  i found myself in a blind alley =( I just thought "OMG how am i going to do  next time?". But i know that everything has a solution, and that i was not going to relsolve anything with those negative feelings, that´s why i  just thought that it was actually possible to do a better performance. So i just prepared everything for Wednesday´s task and began to do my duty.

I managed to avoid the mistakes i had done last time, i liked the fact that i was going to deal with grammar structures which is something that i enjoy instead of doing games, activities and stuff like those.

I tried to do the best activity by giving clear directions, i was totally sure the directions were  clear enough  for me, but sadly they were not for the guys :(, i explained many times and they still didn`t get my idea =( .... i felt so desperated and  i almost freaked out, and adding the fact that i was being observed i just wanted everything to be perfect,but obviously it wasn´t. Luckily, my tutor helped me out and the students finally got the idea.  I appreciated it from the teacher =). When doing the next activity, i noticed one boy did not have a book, he seemed shy and kind of cold towards me. I had a copy of the lesson and gave it to him kindly, he smiled and seemed very  grateful to me, i felt rewarded (good sensations =]) :)!!!...Then i pasted my grammar charts and started my explanations. I think it well went, it wasn´t that bad since everybody got my ideas, i just thought "good for you Sonia". I realised the time isn´t felt whilst being busy and i think this time i did a  better job,  not greater, though.

Furthermore, my classmates have told me that they did better too which is something that im happy for:). Everybody is so close that i just don´t feel the time whilst being in a class. Everyone has a different outstanding quality that i admire.I have to thank them as they´ve been so supportive with me as well.I just have to hang on and give my best in every task,no matter whether i like it or not and it also won´t be forever which is nice ;).Now it seems hard, stressing and it feels that my time is being stolen since i can´t do activities i´m used to do daily but at the same time I know that time goes very fast and out of a sudden i hopefully  will be finishing this semester with a huge smile in my face. 

cheers ;)

Facing my fears !!!

It´s February already and i can`t believe how fast time flies by and the more time is running,the more demanding University homeworks and stuff are getting, im not saying that they are reachless nor impossible to accomplish but for me there are some kinds of activities that i enjoy more than others. Wednesday  was a very interesting day for me since i had to face one of the tasks im the most afraid of (TEACHING).
Last year, i knew that 2011 was going to be very rough for me since i had to face the subject of Teaching Practicum but i was not worried since i had plenty time to relax and not to pay attention to it (it wasnt  time yet). But NOW it is the time for me to get over all my fears and prove myself that i can do whatever task that is set for me. So our teacher set us a level to be in. He raffled the levels/teachers, i had my level and my tutor teacher (the tutor was going to grade me so i depend of him which is very scaring). Afterwards i got acquainted to my tutor and thankfully he seemed nice and he gave me a lot of possitive vibes but i was still super frightened and restless about it. Thursday evening i prepared almost everything for Wednesday´s class because even though my hands were shaking because of next day´s duty, i was telling to myself not to be suffering and that if some of my classmates had done it already, why not me? and i thought about all  the possible details i had to be careful on ( not to have grammar mistakes in my charts nor in my copies, etc). Wednesday i got up at 4:00am and went for an easy run in the track with my team and my sister. At 6:30 i was back home and i took a 30 minute nap, then i got ready and i was off to the University at 8:00am.

I sat in front of the classroom and just waited. Suddenly my tutor teacher showed up and i knew it was time to do it. I felt incredibly nervous that i think everybody in the classroom noticed it ( i felt very ashamed!). Then the teacher kindly introduced me to his students and i began to teach. There were a few restless boys as well as some lovely and respectful guys (boys and girls), that´s normal in a class, though.
Seeing this (identyfing the student´s impressions) helped me so much since i wasn`t the funny target for the students. I felt so good when everybody understood my directions and my activities since they did everything the way i wanted. I felt so relieved and happy since it shows me that they are very quick learners. I wasn´t that nervous anymore  but i still don`t know what the teacher thinks about my performance. I`m looking forward to knowing what my mistakes were and where my weak points showed up the most. Furthermore,  i`m willing to hear any suggestion and correction that my tutor might give me so that we are here to learn. I liked and cannot forget what my tutor teacher told me the last time we spoke "JUST RELAX. We are not perfect but we still need to learn from eachother`s mistakes, i can learn from you as well as you can learn from me ", im so grateful to him for such words because at that point my lack of confidence faded away a bit. I still don´t know what this week´s score will be but i think that i will improve my performance week by week.

In the afternoon`s class (it felt so nice to be a student again!!) i learnt how to create videos i didn`t finish it, the time flew by too fast . When i got home, i was very exhausted both fisically and mentally but in the long run those sacrifices pay off.


The video i intended to make, it is about one of my favorite topiks jaja, a lot of details are missing though.

cheers!!!

SONIS =)