aaaaay no!! no no no mas por favor =( .... not again !!!

wtf!! no more pleasee aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy !!!! "·$%&@#~~€¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡

 im sorry to start  this way but i dont know how to unburden myself !!!

I cant beleive this is happening to me!!! im not in the best mood now, i dont know who to talk to :( ,,, this is not right, im not okay  neither physically nor mentally (im not crazy, though)..... so you may wonder why i am saying this by this blog. The truth is that i feel  im now in a dead end.

1. The new change was suiting us, my new coaches are champions, it feels sooo different and peaceful, but i think that when you do not pay attention to your past injuries, consequences can show up again. So i was starting to feel awful when swimming the past 2 months , i knew it was not me, the hardest i swam, the most painful it felt. I could not believe it, i cried several times at the pool, i was unable to make a tough stroke because it hurt so bad. It has turned a nightmare when trying to swim, how come? why me again? the truth is that i have an injury in my pectoral, when i finished my swimming workouts, my left side looked swollen, more than the right one ( crap!! not again), i kept training since i did not want to stop and lose my fitness, but yesterday it waaaaaaaaay hurt, my pectoral had bursted so badly. I figured this could not keep going the same, i needed to do something.
Thanks God my parents are always there for me, supporting and advising me. I went to see the dr. and he told me i had a serious tendinitis, same as last year, same place, same pain. I feel frustrated since i had taken a lot of medicines to lessen the pain this past 2 moths, but nothing had worked. Im soooo worried since i want to be healthy, i dont want to dissapoint anyone.So i just want to be back to normal, please arm, heal!!!!!.

2. Its pretty tough when you want to move forward and succeed in this wonderful sport, specially if you had worked hard...  but there are factors that storm your effort such as the conditions and mean people.So, as you may know, i didnt have my No 1 weapon for the battle , my bike. Luckily, someone gave me a  suuuper frame, it was waaay too big for me, though :( but as you know, everything has a solution.
My coach suggested to equip the new frame and bring my brothers bike to me since hes bike was my size. Therefore, i could have at least a bike for  training and.start gaining the fitness i had lost. Raul, my brother, felt he was riding a motocycle when he first rode this machine jajajajajaja, he did amazing in the last cycling race.

I am sorry to spread my sorrow to you.....but in a possitive note, i finished my exams yesterday yay!! i am starting my practices at university and altough everything is turning more difficult, i think i am feeling waaaay happier since i will be finishing my degree pretty soon!!O well!! i know things may be tough sometimes, i just try to stay calm and not to freak out !! i know everything will be alright with my arm PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE.


peace