Facing my fears !!!

It´s February already and i can`t believe how fast time flies by and the more time is running,the more demanding University homeworks and stuff are getting, im not saying that they are reachless nor impossible to accomplish but for me there are some kinds of activities that i enjoy more than others. Wednesday  was a very interesting day for me since i had to face one of the tasks im the most afraid of (TEACHING).
Last year, i knew that 2011 was going to be very rough for me since i had to face the subject of Teaching Practicum but i was not worried since i had plenty time to relax and not to pay attention to it (it wasnt  time yet). But NOW it is the time for me to get over all my fears and prove myself that i can do whatever task that is set for me. So our teacher set us a level to be in. He raffled the levels/teachers, i had my level and my tutor teacher (the tutor was going to grade me so i depend of him which is very scaring). Afterwards i got acquainted to my tutor and thankfully he seemed nice and he gave me a lot of possitive vibes but i was still super frightened and restless about it. Thursday evening i prepared almost everything for Wednesday´s class because even though my hands were shaking because of next day´s duty, i was telling to myself not to be suffering and that if some of my classmates had done it already, why not me? and i thought about all  the possible details i had to be careful on ( not to have grammar mistakes in my charts nor in my copies, etc). Wednesday i got up at 4:00am and went for an easy run in the track with my team and my sister. At 6:30 i was back home and i took a 30 minute nap, then i got ready and i was off to the University at 8:00am.

I sat in front of the classroom and just waited. Suddenly my tutor teacher showed up and i knew it was time to do it. I felt incredibly nervous that i think everybody in the classroom noticed it ( i felt very ashamed!). Then the teacher kindly introduced me to his students and i began to teach. There were a few restless boys as well as some lovely and respectful guys (boys and girls), that´s normal in a class, though.
Seeing this (identyfing the student´s impressions) helped me so much since i wasn`t the funny target for the students. I felt so good when everybody understood my directions and my activities since they did everything the way i wanted. I felt so relieved and happy since it shows me that they are very quick learners. I wasn´t that nervous anymore  but i still don`t know what the teacher thinks about my performance. I`m looking forward to knowing what my mistakes were and where my weak points showed up the most. Furthermore,  i`m willing to hear any suggestion and correction that my tutor might give me so that we are here to learn. I liked and cannot forget what my tutor teacher told me the last time we spoke "JUST RELAX. We are not perfect but we still need to learn from eachother`s mistakes, i can learn from you as well as you can learn from me ", im so grateful to him for such words because at that point my lack of confidence faded away a bit. I still don´t know what this week´s score will be but i think that i will improve my performance week by week.

In the afternoon`s class (it felt so nice to be a student again!!) i learnt how to create videos i didn`t finish it, the time flew by too fast . When i got home, i was very exhausted both fisically and mentally but in the long run those sacrifices pay off.


The video i intended to make, it is about one of my favorite topiks jaja, a lot of details are missing though.

cheers!!!

SONIS =)

2010 recap

holaaa..!! i know it has been a while since i last posted .. the first thing i can say is happy new year!! FELIZ AÑO NUEVO PARA TODOS LOS Q LEAN ESTE BLOG, ENSERIO LES DESEO LO MEJOR ,, BENDICIONES !!!!.. So bring on 2011!!!

Though 2010 was a kind of frustrating year for me :S (talking about my sporting life), it was full of rewadness talking about my academic year!!!! So many ups and downs... and full of learning too. As for triatlon, i was struggling with my shoulder injury and i have been unable to get a racing bike which has been very dissapointing :(. but the love for TRI makes you keep training despite the conditions and thats the important thing.
 So a breaf resume of my year so far
I started off last year with a fantastic BOOM, i raced my first 2 elite panamerican cups ever which was the best thing that could have happened at my age.
Then, we stopped training for a while and after arguments amongst sport authorities discussing about whether  or not to compete at Centroamerican games,  2 weeks before the race we were notified El Salvador will participate, Result: Bronze medal!!  =) (was not expected though)...
 Then it was time for a big change in our lives as athletes, after a lot of bad  and humiliating experiences given by people from the FEDERATION  and one of  our old coaches, we deceided to switch coaches which was the best thing that could have happened. How a different amd better enviroment we were in !!!

My bike was broke down, totally ruined it was time for a change too but unfortunately SELFISHNESS,SELF-BENEFIT and ENVY are the main qualities of two of the authorities of my federation which humiliate  their athletes instead of supporting them, therefore, i have no conditions to afford a new bike yet. A new race bike  will have to wait i think :(

 Then, the dissaster, after having such good training with my new bosses and my teammates, last years injury showed up again :( same arm, same thing, same everything, RESULT= cant swim, cant bike :( F"·%6/()( CRAP, "·$·%&// !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But surprisengly whilst my sporting life was going downhill, my academic life wasnt which was the only thing i was happy with :).

After a lot of exams, tests, interviews and paperwork (IN ENGLISH :S!!!) i was given a scholarship by the AMERICAN EMBASSY which means that i will be studying for 1 semester in the US, i still dont know where and when im going  but i couldnt even beleive that i DID qualify among 70 applicants from all over the country!! I am so grateful to God  for this opportunity, i never thought i would have this great chance. They say i will be notified until March 2011, so im still anxious  to know every single detail :)!!!...

Finally the last months i spent the time with my family and friends, trying to recover and heal and

  going to therapy . I have to thank all the ones who were giving me the thereapy in Santa Ana regional hospital ISSS.. Srita Ibarra, Señor Lico Bonilla, Sra de Martinez  Sra de Estrada, Dr Ramos and Dr Romero who were so nice with me.
I cant overlook the fact that i have a NEW PET !!! "Pricess" the new member of the Zavaleta family, shes the most lovely rabbit you could ever see jijijiji...and it was given to me by a special person :)

Finally i just had fun with my friends going to almost every party before NYE, we danced,drank,laughed,ate a lot etc  =)!! So now its 2011, i start uni next monday and the last thing that happened  this week was that i received and infiltration in my left pectoral, near shoulder since it was still very swollen and it may become a cronic injury =(... Now, im just killing the time, laid in my bed and just waiting this bloody injury to dissapear forever....

Some 2010 pics :)

cheers

party :) .. my lil cousins



mum and lovely sammy



post race

central american games !! good times

grandpa xx

friends !! relajooo jaja

family



panamerican cup 2010



super sprint tri .. good memories :)



triathlon lovely friends =)




kika




meme y princess



DeAr OcTuBrE!!

ay ay ay ooh Well, ooo well!!
a lot has happened since i last posted, unfortunately almost anything exciting has been part of it...
These past months have been insanely busy though
 Im going to quickly list what i have been up to

• Im going  ISSS to therapy 3 days weekly .
• I have been teaching to children in a public school for a month.
•  My arm is still in pain but hopefully recovery will come soon.
• Walking my parrots has become a rutine ;) ....really enjoy hanging out with them i love them!!
• Insted of swimming, i use my time either running or gym 
• Watching the boys hit the pool makes me envious of them :(
• Homework, presentations, homework, exams, homework,exams, class, examenes , tareas, clases uusssh drives me nuts
• Just in this last few moths i have read 4 books(Great Expectations, Sense and Sensibility, Macbeth and Frankeinstein) without counting the ones i read the rest of the year!! a new PB for me jaja.... i just figured out that reading has become a hobby now =) which im enjoying a lot.

As i say, it is unbelievable how times goes by. imagine, october is about to end and out of a sudden, 2010 will farewell us. Sometimes i feel desperated for my injure not healed and there are moments in which i get sad and depressed because of this fruitless 2010 sport season. Even though everything has been going downhill, i say to myself that i can get the possitive side out of this. If i cant swim nor bike (its been impossible for me  to get one still). Im able to run and improve my technique and strenght and  thats the best part of tri. If youre injured, there are 2 or 1 sport there for you, therefore, youre never inactive.

Yesterday, i made a presentation about SUPERVOLCANOS at Uni, and i was socked that a volcano in indonesia released its fury.After an earthquake and a tsunami , a volcano?? whats next???:S, i feel sad for this people, it shouldnt happen specially to vulnerable places . Today a Russian volacano woke up too. Nature is warning us and this may be the response more nature is giving. So i invite everybody to cheak our actions towards it. Later on, the consequences will hit us if we keep mistreating this wonderful world we call Earth; and maybe the wise words of  WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE make us think deeply ;)

"Life is tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing"

Soni :)

Yo solo quiero la paz en EL SALVADOR!!!

aaaaay no!! no no no mas por favor =( .... not again !!!

wtf!! no more pleasee aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy !!!! "·$%&@#~~€¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡

 im sorry to start  this way but i dont know how to unburden myself !!!

I cant beleive this is happening to me!!! im not in the best mood now, i dont know who to talk to :( ,,, this is not right, im not okay  neither physically nor mentally (im not crazy, though)..... so you may wonder why i am saying this by this blog. The truth is that i feel  im now in a dead end.

1. The new change was suiting us, my new coaches are champions, it feels sooo different and peaceful, but i think that when you do not pay attention to your past injuries, consequences can show up again. So i was starting to feel awful when swimming the past 2 months , i knew it was not me, the hardest i swam, the most painful it felt. I could not believe it, i cried several times at the pool, i was unable to make a tough stroke because it hurt so bad. It has turned a nightmare when trying to swim, how come? why me again? the truth is that i have an injury in my pectoral, when i finished my swimming workouts, my left side looked swollen, more than the right one ( crap!! not again), i kept training since i did not want to stop and lose my fitness, but yesterday it waaaaaaaaay hurt, my pectoral had bursted so badly. I figured this could not keep going the same, i needed to do something.
Thanks God my parents are always there for me, supporting and advising me. I went to see the dr. and he told me i had a serious tendinitis, same as last year, same place, same pain. I feel frustrated since i had taken a lot of medicines to lessen the pain this past 2 moths, but nothing had worked. Im soooo worried since i want to be healthy, i dont want to dissapoint anyone.So i just want to be back to normal, please arm, heal!!!!!.

2. Its pretty tough when you want to move forward and succeed in this wonderful sport, specially if you had worked hard...  but there are factors that storm your effort such as the conditions and mean people.So, as you may know, i didnt have my No 1 weapon for the battle , my bike. Luckily, someone gave me a  suuuper frame, it was waaay too big for me, though :( but as you know, everything has a solution.
My coach suggested to equip the new frame and bring my brothers bike to me since hes bike was my size. Therefore, i could have at least a bike for  training and.start gaining the fitness i had lost. Raul, my brother, felt he was riding a motocycle when he first rode this machine jajajajajaja, he did amazing in the last cycling race.

I am sorry to spread my sorrow to you.....but in a possitive note, i finished my exams yesterday yay!! i am starting my practices at university and altough everything is turning more difficult, i think i am feeling waaaay happier since i will be finishing my degree pretty soon!!O well!! i know things may be tough sometimes, i just try to stay calm and not to freak out !! i know everything will be alright with my arm PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE.


peace

I Love El Salvador !!! =) muaaaa

i loved working for my people and my comunity ... i want to share some videos
una de mis mejores experiencias !!


En Caluco, Sonsonate


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nI_BoftJQZg&feature=related

Entregando utiles a los nenes de la escuela de Caluco


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cpI8HZcZ55A&feature=related



old ladys house was built

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=76R12lQE54k



fixing the abuelitas house

http://www.youtube.com/user/ROY90ACMZ#p/a/u/2/a5qX5Q9dGTI

One more year, a new start !!

"Start by doing what's necessary;
then do what's possible;
and suddenly you are doing the impossible".

                                                         San Francisco de Asis.



After reading this quote, i could see myself  in it. I cant believe how fast time flies by, wow!!!  now im 21 which means a new start, a new opportunity, new coaches :), and specially new challenges.
A lot has happened this last few months, now my teammates and myself are more motivated than ever, this change has been a plus for all of us.
So now we are starting little by little, with what it is possible, and with what it is necessary . I think everything happens for a reason, it is sad that ES athletes are with zero support and economical conditions are not in our favour,  it does not mean we are going to be depressed, resentful and stop training. Moreover, i am so proud of my sister Stefani for her hard work, she has been so determined in her training and hopefully, she will be a medallist in CODICADER games next month, Raul and Luisito are pushing themselves up too, they are doing their best and it will pay off in the long run. . Many thanx to Gatorade and everyone for their support and understanding.
As for other news, i celebrated my birthday last Saturday, my friends  came over and we all had  a blast.